lauren 101.
2004-10-19 @ 2:37 p.m.

a brief update before i run out the door for school. i have realized the pendulum of sanity in my life rests within the confines of a bitchin catch 22. i thrive off of being strong enough to catch myself in my downswing and pull myself into the centre by being in control of my stresses. unfortunately, i see no way around my week long dreariness as i slowly realize i am becoming overwhelmed which is what pulls me down. to simplify, i've got to get sickly with stress before i can build myself up to succeed. the good news is today i feel like i can do it. im making a promise to myself to settle for nothing less than a B- in communications. i can memorize. i can study until my hair falls out. i'd rather be succesfully bald then beautiful and stupid.

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