i know the truth.
2004-12-30 @ 2:09 p.m.

more strange dreams. i dreamt that there were three women in a bathroom. a long bathroom, like in an airport or a highschool, with a mirror extending from one wall to the next and three basins all in a row. i don't know who the third woman was, but i kept switching between myself and this other person. when i was the other person, i was losing my mind. i felt possesed, as though there were another more sinister existence that was pushing me down into the nether regions of this person. i was trapped and terrified. at one point i was shaking this persons hands from inside of them, trying to gesture my lack of control. using an obscure and frantic form of sign language to explain my complete and utter terror. when i was in the other person, i would watch myself. my actual self. and i would see myself shrink into a little girl and that me, the little me, was afraid. when i was me, in my own body, there was only confusion.

in my second dream i was only a voyeur. i was following these people around in the upper stories of this house. in the attic everything was red and yellow. there was a little boy that everyone was trying to find. he was going to kill a little girl. in bits and peices i can remember finding the little girls body. all i could see was a heap of travesty in a pile of clothes near the end of the room, where i could see the trinagular pinnacle of the house. it was awful and sad. i also remember vaguely an elevator, which i can't place.

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